This town is eating my soul... I need bangs.

Have you ever had a realization hit you so hard there is nothing you can do but obsess over it for hours, and you want to do something about it so bad you almost take the scissors out and just start hacking… Oh god I need bangs. I need them as soon as possible. My hair is holding me back. Tomorrow I am going to try as hard as I can to be a different person not different so much as myself.
 

Thanks giving was alright, but I ate to much lumpia and artichokes and thai curry. I guess my family isn't so traditional… but whatever, then we watched the fountain which was good considering it is my favorite movie other then Serenity and Me You and Everyone we Know.
 

Last weekend I went to an Of Montreal concert with some guy I didn't know.  It was an amazing show too bad I blacked out 45 minuets in. I started falling over and got to the side and then passed out for a second, really hurt my knee, and they helped me out. Hahaha, it was so embarrassing and I didn't get to enjoy the rest of the show as I would have liked. The lights of the stage gave me an awful headache and I would get nauseous and feel dizzy so I sat in the back next to a trash can and just listened. I think I have learned that the folowing ingredients or any combination of a couple lead to blackouts… dehydration, low blood sugar, standing for long periods of time, Alcohol or weed, and fatigue. Just thought I would share.
 

I am really depressed Stuart didn't hire me as his production assistant,  I am sure there will be lots of opportunities to volunteer as always. He got a beautiful Great Dane puppy too, so I'm willing just to hang out and take care of it, or help.
 

Tomorrow I am installing dry wall and hey, I might do more temp work for the same old retarded company of times past. Maybe one of these days I will just tell them to go shove it, but I like buying expensive Christmas gifts for people so I best do what I can. I am looking at macbooks more and more lately and I did get a new credit card I could buy one with, but again, my eroding bank account makes me nervous, so I delay. I just need the perfect computer to come step on my foot really hard.
 

Something today made me and my family laugh really hard, but I don't know why... it wasn't funny. I said I wanted a soft micro fiber blanket for Christmas like Drew has and then my mom asked, "what color?" And my brother said, "well mine is blue so you want green?" And I said "uh.. depends on what green" then we just laughed and laughed, I guess I am "picky" or something.  I didn't realize what a defining trait of mine this was, I am pretty easy going about most things I think, just because I have preferences doesn't mean I really care, I just like having preferences. Maybe this is a bad thing though… is this something I can change…. Maybe I just make this shit up due to some sort of psychological shadow I don't want to contemplate now. If anyone thinks that my pickiness is distasteful or reflects poorly on me please let me know ( :