My Camp from burning man was in town last weekend and perhaps my liver is a little mad at me, but I had a lot of fun. I  just realized that it isn't that burning man is so great, I mean it is incredible, and there is no excuse not to go, but the thing for me is that I got so amazingly lucky because I have the best camp ever and I love them all so much. They are so wonderful, I wouldn't go to bm this year if it weren't for them, I coudn't go back for the fifth time if it was just for the experience. I have burned many different ways, this one is special. You want to get lucky too....

The Deviant Playground (yes, that's right folks - we are DP Camp) is looking for members. Please contact us soon if you are interested, we will need to get our final numbers and space needs to the BM Org. soon. Please see http://www.deviantplayground.org/ for contact info and other stuff.

The Deviant Playground – DP For Your Inner Child

Join us on our mission to exceed all possible levels of legal (or
illegal) deviance at BM08. The Deviant Playground is a chance to
experience your childhood all over again without the pesky
consequences. We'll even let you put gum in your hair.

What we got:
• Community shade structure and clubhouse
• A deviant lemonaid stand
• Kitchen
• A shower
• Evap pond
• Possible porta-potty
• trampoline
• see-saw

What we're doing:
• A number of off the playa events, its a year long experience!
• BRC slumber party
• Midnight picnic
• stuffed animal shelter
• A poly playa wedding
• button making
• body art photography

What we need:
Camp members who are WILLING to participate – This means you are
willing to bring a structure, plan an event that furthers our theme
or provide some sort of camp amenity. Camp members will also be
responsible for providing one group dinner while on-playa.
Participation is MANDATORY and if you show up on-playa sans your
contribution, you will be politely asked to camp elsewhere as soon as
open camping space is available. We intend to be a functional theme
camp and to that end, everyone must participate. Applications will
be reviewed by the Camp Assholes. Therefore, brown-nosing is
encouraged. If accepted into camp, you will be added to our camp
email list. Due to the adult nature of some of our camp activities
and the camp bar, we request that all applicants be at least 21 years
old.

I feel really beautiful and I don't think I've felt that way before. I have thought it before but never felt that way. I would like to say it was in a spasm of realization separation of self and clarity that lead to said event but unfortunately it was because of a guy. He's pretty special to me even though any kind of relationship couldn't work out but the fact that we both thought about that means a lot, from someone who I have had one of my few crushes on to like me back to get nervous to see me. People can tell you how beautiful you are day in and day out and a smile is all it receives, when someone shows you that they mean it expresses that to you someone you value who values you back it means something more. So my gratitude to this person.

On another unrelated note, I love men. I love then them so much, I mean emotionally, as friends, physically. Recently I heard a man say this about women and I was like yeah I love women too... but I rarely hear this sentiment about men. That's kind of unfair, Men rock, just thought I'd mention it

I feel like I'm changing.

Walking down east Arapahoe into the sunset, jr bacon cheese burger and a six pack of cider in hand. So many lives to live. That was fun, me and Heather are fun people.

I painted lots of pink and polkadots Friday!

I am moving out of my apartment now. I like being alone, this is going to be hard.

My brother is looking to buy a house in Broomfield, he said he was going to make sure there are 4 bedrooms so I can stay with him if I want, that is kind of sweet. It is like we want to know each other but we just look at each other and see nothing human staring back. I don't think I would really enjoy living with him and Kim (who is Hillary delegate and mighty irritating). So I don;t think I will. Wow, I guess I'm a failure sister though, I have 20 months to get a good Job, a long-term girlfriend/boyfriend, and buy a house... at least I'm happy.

I can't wait to move to Calgary, that will be so nice, I need to escape, that's how I feel about it. I am going to escape to someone who wants to enter back in, run back to Boulder, to the people and excitement and all I want to do is go live in the country, and not even my own.

I got a ticket to Toast, but My car is lookin' kind of bad, I'd at least need to replace the windshield to drive to AZ and it might not get there plus the 200 dollars in gas, but then I looked at tickets to Calgary and the cheapest one is 389 but to fly from Denver to Phoenix to Calgary and back to Denver is 375, but then I'm stuck with no way to get to toast, no tent and I have to bum around in Phoenix for a few days. And I probably wont be able to bring a lot of burning man clothes ) : I suppose one can always rent things from walmart, although that is a bad thing to do and I could find a ride I am sure and a hotel would coast as much as gas but save my car... blah. Maybe I'll just keep the ticket and say I went. Maybe I can bring it to Apogea and say “shit, you mean this is the wrong burn! So.. .can I get in?

I hate deciding what to do I never know if it is right or not. Maybe I am just really selfish, and if I wasn't this would be easier.

My dad got tickets to see the Flames Avalanche game on Monday, I am excited since I've never seen a real hockey game before!

I love Anderson Cooper, and CNN because they have Anderson Cooper, he is what a good journalist should be.

Also give it up to Ze Frank who is awesome and started color wars on twitter http://colorwar2008.com/

People can be so amazing. You are so amazing.

It is truly a cruel world when one gets the stomach flu on the first day of one's period. On Thursday I awoke with a very uncomfortable bloating feeling and stomach craps that just would not quit needless to say my plans of moving failed but I did have to baby sit which was the worst experience baby sitting not only because I had a terrible stomach ache which I still foolishly attributed to that feminine delight but the kids were particularly un-pleasent in so much as they wanted their mom and when she left and the baby woke up crying all I heard was screaming for a half hour until I called their mom and asked for a hasty return. Once I got home, things got worse I was supposed to work at IL on Friday just for the day of course I canceled around 10 that night as even though I prayed things would be all better by morning the night was spent sleepless with me moaning and screaming in pain, although my roommate probably thought I was just having a good time masturbating too much seeing as how he never asked if I was sick or anything. Anyway today was pretty sucky too. There is nothing quite as tortuous as having to go to the doctor when you are sick people look at you as though they don't realize that this is a doctors office and they ask if you are okay as though maybe you should go see the DOCTOR! Especially since my doctor for some reason is a family practitioner meaning she mostly sees families of small children who annoyingly littered the waiting room,as one woman with baby noted on the elevator “well you look mighty serious” I assume she was addressing me though she said it in a fucking baby voice and I scoffed off to the Lab for more fun. It took two painful hours and I she wanted a freaking stool ample which is really quite disgusting and cruel making someone play with their shit while in pain and quite nauseous. I mean it is stupid to go to the doctor just to aid in ones justification for being sick, but I placated my mothers worry so at least there is that. I took some probiotics which helped alleviate the stomach cramps but my head feels like it is about to implode and my insides feel like they have been shaken loose shredded and are just sloshing around inside of me with random jolts of pain. Anyway, I love writing tales of woe. I have to get up at 7 and move. Yay! I can only imagine what joys tomorrow will bestow.