Things I don't like to talk about for some reason.

I feel really beautiful and I don't think I've felt that way before. I have thought it before but never felt that way. I would like to say it was in a spasm of realization separation of self and clarity that lead to said event but unfortunately it was because of a guy. He's pretty special to me even though any kind of relationship couldn't work out but the fact that we both thought about that means a lot, from someone who I have had one of my few crushes on to like me back to get nervous to see me. People can tell you how beautiful you are day in and day out and a smile is all it receives, when someone shows you that they mean it expresses that to you someone you value who values you back it means something more. So my gratitude to this person.

On another unrelated note, I love men. I love then them so much, I mean emotionally, as friends, physically. Recently I heard a man say this about women and I was like yeah I love women too... but I rarely hear this sentiment about men. That's kind of unfair, Men rock, just thought I'd mention it

I feel like I'm changing.